I want to adopt minimalism

How many times have I regretted falling into the trap of “living the good life”, working and making what seems like enough money to go and spend it.

Every time after the shopping spree I couldn’t really keep the joy as I realized I didn’t really need any of the things I bought.

Sure, shopping and spending money in expensive things comes with the feeling of power and achievement but it’s just a big illusion.

I realized that spending money and buying things I didn’t need basically came from a deeply rooted subconscious need to show off; to prove to others I was “better” or the “alpha person” because I could afford expensive things…when and why did I ever believe that big fat lie?

I started prepping for my life changing almighty year long trip exactly last spring, in my mind I saw this picture of myself with a big backpack over my shoulders staring into the horizon on the top of a mountain in a remote place, so of course I set to the task of finding the perfect backpack and the perfect outfit to accomplish this picture perfect moment.

Once I had the backpack it took me 3 months and many attempts to actually pack it, the first time I packed it I had so many things that I couldn’t even fit them inside.

On the second attempt I took a good look at what I was planning to take and sacrificed some clothes for the sake of fitting it all in, this time the clothes were inside but the toiletries not.

On the third attempt I tried to take only the basic things and it worked but the weight was such that I couldn’t even carry it.

That exercise made me realize how much stuff my brain thought I needed at the time and how hard it was to erase this program: My brain really couldn’t get around surviving with only what is really necessary and practical.

Finally I managed to pack the bag and to get it on the plane but every time I had to walk a lot with it I realized I was carrying a lot and I was not even using half of the things, they were all for “in case I go to____”.

I have now been traveling for 9 months and I have been getting rid of things all along.

Of course the question in my mind “Will I survive without these or that?” was totally stupid and unnecessary, everywhere I went I had everything that I needed for that specific place and weather not because I had bought it and had it in my backpack but because the universe and life is amazing and abundant.

It’s learning how to flow within life, being aware that all you need is already taken care of and there is no need to worry.

I always have this image from the movie “Finding Nemo” when the fish get into the current and they encounter the turtles, they are wise and laid back enjoying the current, they have learned how to get on it and when to exit and they are not afraid to go with it and enjoy it.

I am determined to flow into life instead of fighting against it, to make my own rules and create my own social model based on what’s really important for me: connection with nature, respect, love for this planet and for all its living beings and for that I don’t need things, I need only the basics which can be at the same time things that I like and want but I really feel the urge to live with the minimum.

Traveling has given me the opportunity to start and yet I feel I have a long way to go.

My goal for the next 6 months is to manage to have only my backpack, whatever fits in there is what I keep and what doesn’t then I want to let go…

Let’s see how that goes

Where is my peace?

After a wonderful experience in Cyprus, coming back to Germany proved to be quite tough on my spirit; even though I feel connected to this land, the drastic absence of the sun during the first days of april and the wet weather were hardly enjoyable.

But putting the weather aside, the new challenge that awaited for me was bigger and tougher than what I could have envisioned.

I found myself in a situation that I would call “a karmic loop” this means for me being in a situation that you have already experienced and struggled with in the past, a situations that repeats itself with the same or even more intensity.

I was giving all my energy (thoughts, time, actions) to a commitment that was in turn not giving me space to have personal time for sleep, for nutrition, for recreation, for spirituality and silence.

I felt invaded at every corner by the need to take care of something, fix something, do something because otherwise it would fall apart while I observed others around me watching the situation crumble and letting it be without intervention, without offering any help.

After what I have learned throughout my journey I realize that this “karmic loop” is happening for a reason, I knew I was not a victim of any circumstance, that no one was doing any wrong to me, not people, not a place, not life nor the universe, this came to me as a call for attention, a lesson I thought I had already learned but that apparently had not been really processed yet.

And as I observed the whole situation unveil before my eyes, I felt caught, I felt trapped in a high speed train that I did not want to be in but simply could not be stopped, so I fell ill, I caused my body all sort of problems and pains from a hard neck and back that were hurting all the time to gaining a ridiculous amount of weight and as an observer, as a conscious witness of all that was happening I got quite angry that this would be happening in my life again.

I had learned how to listen to myself, I had connected with my intuition, I had connected with my true self, my real self, my self without masks, my original source, the one that did not need to please anyone or prove anything to anyone, the one that knew herself, valued her strengths, knew where her struggles and pains were and loved herself above anything without being attached to anything or anyone.

I was very displeased with my inability to stay in my power, in my balance, in my center. I decided to quit my job and leave a life behind me to travel the world because my heart urged to do so, I decided to go against all odds and expectations to be me, to be free, to follow my calling, and suddenly I couldn’t even award myself time to rest or exercise or dance or relax anyhow. I felt enslaved by “responsibility” and maybe this is what the test was all about, can I stay true to myself when the result of my effort is not manifesting?

I felt very bad about forgetting myself, shutting myself down and putting myself in the least important place, and with the physical manifestations of my inner repression I was even more sad and felt helpless so it all turned pretty bad and the hole I had dig for myself just grew deeper and darker.

Keeping myself in the same situation and doing the same things will not get me any different results so it’s clear for me that I need to start actioning in the opposite direction, I need to reach the wheel and steer it to regain course.

Life is a cycle and no matter how much anger I generate towards myself for having to start all over again that won’t help me…

I must begin a new journey in search for my inner peace.

Connecting with the mermaid within

There is something about the ocean that calls me and heals me.

For a long time I have lived  near the sea, in spite of living a work-oriented life downtown and not in front of the beach, I loved to go out at the break of dawn to take a deep breath and feel the ocean breeze filling my lungs.

Nothing was more rewarding than running along the ocean watching the sunrise and then diving into the arms of a loving sea.

After 5 months of being separated from this power source, I was blessed to begin the year 2018 near to my beloved sea on the shores of Tel Aviv. After observing the shift in my body and my energy by being near the ocean again I was able to relate how important this connection is for humanity.

Water is the source of life, this is a very powerful statement by itself.

This planet is mostly made out of water just like our bodies as part of the planet  are mostly made out of water, a mother carries a child in her womb in water, civilizations and animals live and move where they can find water. If water is inside of us and the ocean is the biggest concentration of water and life we can find, there is certainly a relationship between ourselves and the ocean.

Water is the universal vehicle and the ocean has allowed people to travel and explore the world since ancient times also acting as a vehicle.

I answered the call of the ocean after my time in Israel and came to live near the beach once again, this time instead of the Caribbean it was the Mediterranean island of Cyprus who received me.

Everyday we met and spent time together -the ocean and me- sometimes we talked and shared our feelings of joy, sadness, fear and concern. Sometimes we played and danced enjoying  a good time, sometimes we stood silent together and went into meditation.

Every time there was a different lesson to be learned and every day the energy was different, from empowering and daunting to relaxing and soothing, this time together made me aware of the mother ocean’s voice.

MERMAIDS

I believe that the way ancient tribes understood life and the universe is not wrong or crazy, to me it actually holds a lot of value and meaning, with that being said, mermaids are the symbol of the connection between humans and the ocean.

I personally like the concept of half human half animal creatures because it demonstrates a blend and a harmony, one is not complete without the other.

As for the origin of this depiction it might have come from the companionship of dolphins and manatees towards the people traveling the ocean, or maybe these creatures are there and they just show themselves from time to time. Whichever the story is behind them, mermaids are a representation of femininity, the beauty of the sea and its delicate balance.

Connecting with this energy means to become one with the ocean, to allow this fascinating piece of the Earth come to live within your heart and therefore understand that “If she heals, you heal”.

We can’t survive without the ocean. Just like our mother she is kind and loving, providing us with life, wealth, health and riches.

Let’s stop the violence towards everyone that surrounds us and take care of our own family, especially our ocean family.

  • Kristina

Smiling Dogs

Going through my archives I just found this picture of Brandy!! a.k.a. Brandyna from 2012, she is the sweet companion of good friend and wedding filmmaker Oscar Nunez.

It’s wonderful and amazing how dogs and animals in general can lift your spirit.

I have always thought we would benefit a lot being more dog-like, authentic, living in the moment, loving, caring, playful, friendly, fierce, enjoying the simple things, living a simple and rewarding life, realizing all that matters is here and now and loving completely without boundaries.

Thank you animal realm for teaching us without words such valuable meanings, thank you for your existence because without you humankind would be lost.

Thank you to all the people who love dogs and animals, who take care of them and are able to understand that even if we don’t speak the same language (us and them) we are all part of the same family.

Love,

Kristina

Getting started on traveling

For the longest time I had dreamed of seeing, sipping and savoring the world, after many years I have finally started this great adventure.

I left Home to look for other homes all over driven by my intention of giving, I am taking at least one year to volunteer wherever I can be needed and hope to collaborate with many people that are making a change in the world.

And even though the adventure has just begun I am already reflecting upon what I’ve learned so far:

1. What Jamaica taught me: People are great and the joy to live and love is free. 

The fact you don’t understand a culture doesn’t give you a say on who they are, I feel a lot of people have an opinion about Jamaica and their people, their ways of being, but what I see is they are amazing and have everything to offer the world #respect #goodvibes #yamon 

Sunset in Ocho Rios, Jamaica picture credit: Kristina Guerrero

2. What Cambridge taught me: It’s funny how the mind works, it’s set to get used to things and repeat patterns so as much as you research and plan ahead the right option is always the one your intuition points to. Even if you are a super thorough planner, reality has it’s own twists and turns so always listen to your common sense and intuition e.g. If you see an ATM from your bank and think “I might need some cash” then get it, otherwise you will be trying to get it when you don’t have the time or when you’re not in the place and it will just cost you a lot more and remember pounds are not euros and euros are not usd so check your math.

Cambridge, England Picture by Kristina Guerrero
Safe travels!!

Photography Field Trip: Crococun

The end of my photography class with Photographer Eric Blanc is near, and as part of our program, we went on a field trip to get some nature shots.

We visited a Crocodile farm near Cancun in Puerto Morelos and were able to photograph many interesting things, but the best part of it all is that we were lucky enough to presence the birth of some newborn crocodiles!! and a pregnant Spider Monkey  with a little one waiting for the family to expand.

spider monkeys live in the wild but they approach the park because they find comfort in the preserved jungle, since the surrounding areas have been devastated they are running out of their habitat, just like many other native species.

The job that biologists and young people do at Crococun is very important for the local wildlife, so I hope you enjoy the pictures and if you ever visit Cancun, Puerto Morelos or Playa del Carmen, don’t hesitate to visit, they have guided tours and your entrance fee will help preserve wildlife.

For more on Crococun visit their webpage here

Our tour guide after opening the door for us to greet the mexican xoloitzcuintle dogs, a very special thanks to out tour guide and all of the staff at the park who make a great job in informing visitors and preserving natural life.

And here are the newborns!

By: Kristina Guerrero

Photos: Kristina Guerrero

Electrical Storm

There is a storm watch over Cancun, for a few hours the climate was very hot, suddenly heavy dark clouds started winning over the blue sky, a few drops or rain came down.

Then the horizon became bleak and the feeling of the power of a lightning very close by struck (and actually it burned my modem) but all I could think of is to wait for another one and see how the electrical storm would develop.

Here are the pictures:

 

The beginning of the storm, the heavy clouds gaining on the horizon while the sun was going down

The climate became very windy, a cool strong wind that made the palm trees seem like rubber bands

The sunset was fighting the heavy clouds and they formed a circle up in the sky which turned pink and purple

Waiting for the next lightning to strike

I got lucky and caught a little bit of one

I always look at the sky and the clouds and this was a very special show, to watch them turn into a Nebula, so similar to the insides of a Star

Just a little bit of clear sky left in bright blue

All pictures by: Kristina Guerrero, taken in Cancun, Mexico, August-04-2012.

Original Colors and Pictures (not edited)

Nubes

I love to photograph clouds, they are always different, sometimes they move, sometimes they appear to be drawn, sometimes they seem to be the background of a videogame, they shine, they reflect colors, they give way to your imagination to see anything that you want with their shape.

I like to photograph clouds in all the forms that I can percieve, here are some of my pictures.